Necrosis of tissue: Necrosis (from the Greek νεκρός, "dead") is the name given to premature death of cells and living tissue. Necrosis is caused by external factors, such as infection, toxins, or trauma. ---- Thank you wikipedia.
Now if, using science, I relate the necrosis of tissue to the unhappiness and stress in my life... it is easy to see that the elimination of necrosis-causing factors "external factors, infection, toxins, or trauma" in my life can cure the death of my happiness. Therefore, the elimination of negative factors/people from my life should end in an increase in my own personal happiness level.
Somehow it's easy to see what I should do based on science, but doing it has proven to be much more difficult. I have, however, made a decision to eliminate certain people from my life in hopes of reducing the stress and unhappiness in my life. It has worked so far. Over the past 2 days, I've been relatively stress free. I've enjoyed more time with Billy, my music, and friends that I care to see and who I feel are positive influences.
Looking back, I do see a pattern regarding my need to "help people who need it." I tend to scoop up the lonely, the angry, and the hurtful because no one else will. 5 years ago, that resulted in me being assaulted and witnessing an attempted suicide. It happened with my father, and I saw it happening again. Not on the same scale, but it was hurting me, and that is enough justification to end it. Helping these types of people makes me feel needed. I've now made a conscious decision to stop this, because it borders on co-dependency. Now I will only invest my time into people and endeavors that are beneficial to my personal growth. Selfish? Maybe. But it's better than falling back into the blackhole of depression that I knew 5-6 years ago.
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